۱۳۸۷ آبان ۱۳, دوشنبه
For those who know me,it's clear that I am out of smoking,drinking and other good stuff! Never tried any of them since last night,It was pleasure to be introduced with the lightest happy maker instrument , sheesha! First of all it was all white smoking coming out from my poor mouth and after that,a bit coughing and then relaxing time started.My mind was absent for some minutes and after that,every thing was back to normal.My friend who was accompanying with me,advice to push more smoke inside of lungs, and the result was different! Every thing looks nice,all of bad thoughts disappeared and a strange feeling of happiness was replaced with that. Sky looked more lower than usual and earth was greater place to live! I tried to get rid of this feeling,but it was impossible,so I pushed myself to think about bad things,worse you can imagine!It did not work!I was thinking about some body attack my country,killing and burning and destroying every thing,but even a small sadness for me!
I was scared!
It was unbelievable for me to not be angry or sad of bad things!
Have you ever seen in old Arabic movies,all of the people are sitting around small tables,outside of coffee shops and smoking sheesha for about 3-4 hours and just chatting.even same in Iran,but more inside the houses in old times.Was not it the best way of escaping sadness and feeling of contempt ?
I promised myself not to do it again,never be far from my thoughts,hopes,passions and loves.
My mind needs to be conscious all the time,every second,always be turned on!
no estar de acuerdo?
Write it down my friends!
۱۳۸۷ مهر ۱, دوشنبه
The Muslim fasting month has come to the half and it is a good subject to write about.In all major religions,fasting is one of the basic duties for the believer .A simple question is coming to every body's mind that why fasting?!why Not eating or drinking is important ?why not some thing else?like every body must walk for half a day during one month!Or maybe living alone for a week!Other suggestions like learning some thing new in a period of time or working in some special places and...!
Other strange thing is that all fasting rules are starting with NOT!Do not eat or drink from morning to evening for a month,Rmadan(Islam)!Do not eat meat on Ash Wednesday and Fridays of Lent period(Catholic)!Do not eat any meat and diary products during Lent's Fridays and ash Wednesday(Orthodox)!Do not eat and drink for 24 hours on Yom Kippur and Tisha Bav (Judaism)!Do not eat solid foods,just milk or water, for 24 hours on every new day of a month and 3 other days,Puja,Shivratri,Durga puja (Hinduism)!Do not eat solid foods on 14Th day of a month(Buddhism) and do not eat meat on second,12Th,14Th and 21Th day of every month(Zoroastrianism)!
More interesting stuff is,why eating and drinking are so important in a religion that Not doing them can be a big bonus in our relationship with God?!
In all pointed religion on top,on the side of not eating and drinking,It's advised to not doing any thing bad.Like lying,swearing,lust,priding,envying,greeding and others.If a fast person does these things,It's same of breaking the fast by eating something!
Let's go to Not !
Imagine if one day ,some thing unwanted happen in our personal or social life. We have to prevent ourselves to doing regular things and do some change until the problem being solved.Fasting is a practice of doing that.Stop ourselves to doing regular and enjoyable and normal stuff,prepare us to protect ourselves against the unwanted winds.
It will be a nice world if one day every body start to fast on bad things!
I wish to see that soon,with all of you amigos!
۱۳۸۷ شهریور ۱۲, سهشنبه
She is tying her long fingers together. Manicure, same colour of her skin, has covered her nails, Colourless! Looking precisely at her skinny hand, you can see the bloodstream on her green prominent vessel. Her hand is bony, but soft. Not kind, but warm.
She is pressing her fingers to each other, second one to the third. A bit moving them. The other fingers are relaxed, as herself! When you look at them from far ,look like a pistol ,targeting to somebody ,maybe me or herself !I’d like to watch them for hours ,separating ,pressing ,relaxing and finally, sometimes touching the lips.
-Where are you?!
-It’s 14! It’s become 14!
She is smiling, meanwhile tracing my eyes, which are staring at her ashtray!
۱۳۸۷ شهریور ۴, دوشنبه
To break the ice, start with myself.When I was a child,like age 11-12, I had some personal dreams.Personal means not talking about family or other people or counties or whatever!Just about me.I always wanted to be a teacher.some one who knows some thing special and deliver it to other people in Speaking way!Not just a common teacher,but some body who is funny in teaching and friendly with students.Using new methods and always be up to date in every thing,not just what he teaches.
My other dream was to publish a newspaper,magazine or some thing similar.With nice cover and professional columns .Not to be a writer,but an editor.Some one to give ideas to others and make it correct for publishing.Some one who is creative in writing and adequate on his society.
I always liked to live in other country,not just visit.To see different living styles and traditional ceremonies and learning other languages.Touching new ideas and feeling them from very close.Maybe fall in love with one of them and stay to learn and learn and then,coming back to my home town and represent it for others.
Playing professionally for a sport team like football or basketball was another dream.raising the trophy, cheering up the spectators and be in the memories for years.This one was typical for every children,even me!
I finish with these four,beside so many small ones,but was I successful to reach these dreams?Or Am I still in the way or may be,like so many other people,I lost my dreams...
First to be a teacher,or better to say a lecturer,I tried my best at my university in Iran! Every week,there were some classes that I could teach some thing I was learnt before, out side or inside the Uni.Even a writing literature class,how to write proper article! Not very frequent but I was happy in the class and even using a new method to teach that was paperless for the students!No body needed a note book to write down and they could remember every thing for the next session!On the other side,surprisingly I was a good speecher!Easily speaking in front of 500-600 people about some topics without any note was some thing I did it for a few times!
Second to be an editor, first I tried to enter a very good journalism university at the age of 18.Although it happened,but I changed my university to an engineering department. Hence trying to start a student-magazine in my faculty,which was very hard because of so many ridiculous criteria,But with help of my friends,Finlay we published the first independent newspaper in our university,some thing that never happened again!Even some local magazines published my stories and articles about the diplomatic views!It was fantastic!I can not describe the feeling when I saw my magazine in people's hand!I could not believe that some one would Pay to Buy some thing to Read my ideas about the any thing!So second was done!
Third has happened since 2 years ago.Coming abroad to study in some thing that here, they are the best on it in the world and on other side ,living in another culture and society with completely different conditions in compare of the place that I was grown up!Already planning how to convey the good stuff in here to my country and make a Strong connection between two different side of the world!Hard to do,takes time but future is bright!
Finlay,dreaming about to be a professional sport man,well, I spent some time with some youth clubs and played for my secondary school and university basketball team ,but to be honest, never liked the environment around there!Not talking so much about it because may be I was in a wrong position to decide but,still a very enthusiastic sport fan!
Well,as you see,I have achieved most of my dreams!Not in a proper way but at least tried my best.May be my dreams were not so big that I reached them in this age or may be I have to make some new dreams for my self again.Here I think is the difference between a Dream and a Goal! You have to plan for your goals and with trying hard you will get it.But If you want to achieve your dreams,you need more than planning and working hard! you need a secret!try to find your secret inside of yourself...
My secret is 只有 !
Beso para usted !
۱۳۸۷ مرداد ۳۰, چهارشنبه
Some times STARING to your mobile phone for ringing,wishing to ring,even a beep for a message!nothing! Again you...
rest your arm,STARING to your map,sticked to the wall,demonstrating the old empire,the place your fathers was ruling.STARING at borders of this place,it's half of the world.Feeling shame that as a son of those fathers,you just stare!
Not a good reason to blink ,just stare!stare to the sun,make you cry but at least,feeling different!Pain!you like pain,make you believe that still alive!
STARING at your self in the mirror,touching the new wrinkles on your front,feeling every hair that you lose and eventually,sleeping to see some new world in your dream!
And writing,for who?some person that grammar call it ((YOU))!
Now you stare!
۱۳۸۷ مرداد ۲۹, سهشنبه
Writing about the life,views,social observing and a brief of the discussion that happens between the Friends can be good ideas to bring down in this weblog.
Some times like to do some thing in Persian or explaining traditional stuff. I'd like to write down some thing about the course that I do in here as well. Here means England!
To start, Olympic is the current events that shows countries abilities in science,solidarity,programming,managing and Finlay physical exercising.
It's nice that so many athletes from whole of the world coming to attend in a same field ,SPORT! Target is raising up the spirit of competition and on the side,good business for the host country .
I read in the news,that My country has spent nearly 5 million pound for preparing the athletes to come and play their games in Beijing! I can say,they could make about 3 big factories in Iran with that money that at least give 1000 young people permanent job. 1000 jobs means at least saving 5000 people's economical condition and Finlay,making hope of good life in the future for their kids.
On the other hand,if some successes happen in Beijing,it will have a world wide reflect for Iranian system.
Well,the money has gone! So I wish at least they can bring us some gold or silver or bronze from Chinese mines!
As ta la vista !